My skin is clearing up somewhat. Again. Hopefully it lasts this time. The depression is getting worse. =/ And the mood swings are getting a little crazy.

So my skin is breaking out so bad. Cysts are coming back for revenge and It couldn’t be more terrible timing. After an entire week with mostly clear skin, the night I planned on going on clubbing (last night) I broke out terribly. And now next Saturday I’m going to a BBQ where I’m going to be seeing friends from high school that I haven’t seen in years. I swear to God, If I’m not clear by then…ugh, I don’t even know. This shit sucks so much. I’m almost out of Differin and I can’t get more because It’s so expensive. 

I woke up this morning feeling very sore. My chest is still in pain and every joint in my body aches. My feet crack when I walk (more than normal) and my lips are so painfully dry and cracking. They’re cracking up the sides too. Ugh. I really hope this is worth it.

For now, I’m using cetaphil on my skin and aquaphor on my lips. 

So far, Accutane has treated me well. My acne is clearing up which is AMAZING. But I’ve been suffering with some side effects already. There’s, of course, the super dry cracked lips, the dry sunburnt feeling skin and the muscle soreness. But I’ve been having these horrible chest pains as of recent…maybe in the past 3 days or so. I’m not sure if it’s accutane related or not. 

As far as the mental side effects, I haven’t really noticed my depression getting worse. I’m having a lot of trouble concentrating or remembering things. And I also don’t have much of an appetite. I’ve also noticed that my body dismorphia is getting a lot worse. I don’t know if I’ve gained weight or if just my view has changed. That probably has nothing to do with the accutane.